decrepitude

so i got a little scare the other day: i thought i was having a heart attack. i guess work stress is worse than i reckoned. anxiety attack is prolly the correct term and luckily my wife is good at modulating elevated arousal states 'n' shit from her work as a speech-language pathologist w/pre-verbal multi-disabled kids. (hunh? sorry, i'm not gonna 'splain.) sure, i've been in tighter fixes than the one i'm experiencing currently, but i was younger / fitter then, and perhaps felt like i had greater ability to influence events than i do now. i have an appt to see the quack in a week. in the meantime, i'll be thinking a lot about starting over as a landscaper or housepainter. good side: made it real easy to quit smoking. tbd side: food, sleep, invigorating walks, etc. now take precedence over maintaining this blog. (note: the announcement of a hiatus from bloggage is usually the precursor to a flurry of blog activity.) at any rate, i'll still be playing at the little wreckroom on wednesday nights. and writing whenever the f*ck i feel like it (altho not always when i think i should). see ya.